Friday, May 25, 2012

Face-to-face with the truth

I admit that when I look in the mirror, I see only what I want to see.
I admit to cropping pictures so that I can see only what I have to see. 
I admit to pretending that I don't look as fat as I am.
I admit that I have become comfortably settled into my denial.
I admit that I am powerless over food.
I admit that I must take a personal inventory of myself. 
I admit that I am fat. 
I admit that I need to take action.  

Yesterday I learned the results of some medical tests I recently had done. There was some good...

Cholesterol: 198 --HDL and LDL numbers need improvement,  triglycerides were low which kept me below the desired, 200.   
EKG: good/normal. 
Kidney function: good/normal.
Glucose: borderline diabetes - OH CRAP!
Weight: humiliating
BMI: humiliating
Body fat %: humiliating

The numbers don't lie.  It's time for me to face my reality.  
What goes up, must come down. 


Sandy said...

I could have written this post.....I am pulling for you! Sandy

Tresa said...

Thank you so much, Sandy!

Tammy's in Love said...

Well, Miss Speedy, that was some confession! I'm crossing my fingers and saying my prayers for you. I'm sure your doc had some ideas for you and I hear nothing but good things about Weight Watchers. Good luck to you, it's work but you can do it!


Erica of Golden Egg Vintage said...

You are so brave to put this out there. And I too could have written this post. My weight is out of control right now. And the other morning I felt really light headed. My mom checked my blood sugar(since she's diabetic), and it was high for having not eaten since the night before. It really scared me! I've got to make some serious changes too. Sugar is my drug!
I'm wishing you the best on your road to health!
Erica :)

Holly said...

Are we the same person or are you just in my head again?

Tresa said...

Thank you, Tammy.

Weight Watchers has worked for me in the past. Thanks for the encouragement!


Tresa said...

Hey there Erica,

I'm sorry you are struggling too. Sugar (especially pastries)is my drug of choice :). Thank you for the sweet comments and encouragement! I wish you the best too. We can do this!!!


Tresa said...

You actually got in my head first when you posted a while back about starting Weight Watchers. I read that post and went into a panic about my weight. The panic lasted about as long as it took me to get to the kitchen and grab a cookie.

Perfectly Printed said...

Ditto all of the above! It is very hard to get going, to establish some kind of routine regarding eating habits! I try and walk a little each day. And not be upset with myself it it's not a half hour or really fast. I am trying to be happy with baby steps.. Thinking of you!! We are all in this together!


Momma Truitt said...

I feel you girl!!! When I saw the pictures from Olivia's birthday party, I knew I had to do something!! It is one of the hardest things I have done, but after losing the first twenty, it's helped keep me motivated. I haven't changed much, but I have been watching portion sizes and stopped using butter in everything. In al. Honesty, I think you are a beautiful woman, and you have a good heart. That's stuff to be proud of!!